I needed an album cover for all this talk of songwriting.
As a part of my internship assignments, I have written 8 songs. These 8 songs were a part of my midterm and are now used at one of the contracts I see, which is pretty wild, if I do say so myself. This week, my assignment was to write two more songs. One for myself and one that addressed mental health needs with teenage clients. This was very different from writing a song about winter or waiting our turn.
It’s scary to write something like this. When you write a movement song, the judgment you open yourself up to is musical in nature. When you write a song about emotions, you realize that you are opening yourself up for someone to judge what you think and feel. It is so important to remember this when asking our clients to partake in songwriting.
Songwriting
My Process
Looking back at my previous posts, I realized I have never talked about my songwriting or my process. The songs I have written, for the most part, have fallen into two categories: songs where I came up with the lyrics or basis for my lyrics first, and songs where I started with a chord progression or a melodic line. For these two songs I wrote, the mental health songs were part of the first category, whereas the song for myself started with the music first.
Writing The Mental Health Song
To create my lyrics, I started with a brain dump of emotions. Emotions that I have felt recently, mixed with thoughts and feelings I expressed in songs I wrote when I was a teenager. I then sorted through to create possible lyrics. Next, I went to my sister. I ran possible lyrics past her because I wanted her opinion, as she had also dealt with mental health struggles in our youth, and I wanted a different perspective from my own. I wanted to make sure the content was relatable. I was afraid of it being too heavy, and that’s when she gave me the greatest quote. She said, “GraceAnne, I was clinically depressed. What kind of music do you think I was listening to?” Don’t worry, I have her permission to say that. I just had to add music.
Whether starting with lyrics or not, I usually tinker around on my guitar to get the chord progression or melodic line. Messing around, I really felt drawn to a harmonic minor feel. I messed around and borrowed major chords from it’s parallel major, creating a mixed modal sound. This is just a fancy way to say the chord progression doesn’t really belong to major or minor, which fits a song about being stuck and trying to move forward.
Writing A Song For Myself
I found this to be harder than anything, not just for the reason I discussed in the beginning of this article, but because once I wrote it down and shared it, it made it true. True, that these feelings were mine. I could have written a song about anything, but without me trying formed into a song about struggling. A song about being angry and tired. A song about how exhausting it is to be a chronically ill and neurodivergent woman in this world. It’s scary to feel what may be considered as non-positive emotions and then to own those feelings.
Due to the weather, the guitar I have been using keeps going out of tune. Whenever I pick it up, the low E string has gone close to a full step flat. I didn’t realize the guitar was pretty much in Drop D tuning when I was noodling around melodically. Once I did notice, I tuned it so it was actually in Drop D and kept going. I had created a melodic ostinato that became the backbone of my song. It made it sound like a grungy, early 2000’s song, so I decided to add power chords, because nothing says grunge like power chords. For lyrics, I improvised them on the spot. I kept adding until I found ones that I liked.
How They Can Be Used
If I were to use either of my songs with a client, my first thought would be a song discussion and maybe even a rewrite afterwards. I like to think that what I wrote is something others can relate to. I remember being a teen, struggling with my mental health and wanting to have these conversations. Kids have complex emotions and it does not do them a service to pretend they don’t and censor anything we may perceive as being too heavy, especially if they have already expressed those feelings and thoughts.
Songwriting In Sessions
There are so many ways and reasons to use songwriting in sessions. You can do MadLib-style fill-in-the-blank to reinforce parts of speech. Fill-in-the-blank to work on turn-taking or making a song more adapted to the client. You can do a piggyback/rewrite where you write part of a song or a whole song to a familiar tune. You can even write a song from scratch. All these ways work on self-expression, choice making, and create space for silliness, problem-solving, and emotional processing.
Some Of My Favorite Songwriting I Have Done
Two of my favorites, which I have done during my internship, were MadLib-style fill-in-the-blank. I did it with my school contracts. We worked on parts of speech, turn-taking, impulse control, and self-expression by creating the silliest version of “All Star” by Smash Mouth. It was so different at each school. It’s so special to see them laugh and enjoy themselves while creating music.
Another favorite songwriting project I did was during a practicum at Western. I saw a group of adults with mental health goals. We rewrote “Make Your Own Kind Of Music” by Cass Elliot after discussing it. We then took turns listing what we each thought made the others special, as well as our favorite things about each other, and used that as our lyrics, as well as ways of coping when “nobody else sings along”.
Last Thoughts
Songwriting isn’t easy, but it is so rewarding to have that finished product. Songwriting is such a valuable tool to use in sessions, but also as a music therapist needing music that fits a specific need. I used to dread writing music, but there is something so nice about being able to create a song when I can’t find a song or a song doesn’t exist for the specific purpose I need it for.
I spent a lot of time combing through this Spotify playlist, along with others, in my search. Which songs are you familiar with?
A couple weeks ago my assignment was a rap challenge. To be honest, that was terrifying. I don’t know the first thing about rap. It’s not music that I have been exposed to a lot during my life. I mostly listen to ‘pop girlies’, indie, and musicals.
My assignment was to “create 3 rap based interventions to be used with clients across a variety of settings” and to “identify 5-10 appropriate rap songs that can be used with teens in the clinical setting.” Today, I’m writing about the interventions I came up with.
The first thing I did was go to my supervisors and get clarification. They weren’t expecting me to rap, right? The music I have been exposed to has used words I cannot, should not, and will not use. The idea of me trying to rap is one that would easily keep me up at night. Luckily for everyone in the world, they told me they use recorded music in sessions.
The second thing I did was get music recommendations from probably every person and source I could find and then sat down and really listened. I read through the lyrics of so many songs and while looking for music, had to face biases I didn’t realize I even had. Why don’t I listen to rap? Why do I feel the need to try and search for songs with deeper meaning? Do I do this with other genres of music when it comes to looking for music for session planning? What do I actually know about rap and it’s significance to culture? How do I deal with censorship? How much do I censor? Those are just some of those deep questions I had to ask myself.
Intervention One
Body Percussion- “Just Wanna Rock”- Lil Uzi Vert
For my first intervention, I picked “Just Wanna Rock” by Lil Uzi Vert. I really liked the beat and quickly got an idea from a session I was planning for one of my contracts at that time. What if I used this song for a body percussion intervention? When looking on YouTube to see if there were any play along body percussion videos for any rap songs, I found none. So let’s make one.
Instead of a play along video, I got the idea to print out little cards with the body percussion action on it. It would be like the play along video but tangible. I could mix and match them to create different patterns in real time. We do something similar with one of the classes we see at Hope, but instead of body percussion, the cards have different rhythms. The students then use the cards to create their own rhythm. What if I did the same thing but with body percussion. Students would work on sustained attention, following directions, respecting the choices of other’s, turn taking, and self expression.
I don’t currently have clients I would use this with, but it is something I would like to do in the future.
Intervention Two
Movement- “Shake It To The Max”- Moliy, Silent Addy, Skillibeng, Shenseea
The second intervention I created was movement to “Shake It To The Max” by Moliy, Silent Addy, Skillibeng, and Shenseea. For this movement intervention, I would have the clients create a dance together but having each client choose or create a dance move. I have done something similar at Sparc, but have never done it with a rap/hip hop song.
To do this, I would create a dance move pick list, a visual with different choices of dance moves. I would encourage group members to come up with their own moves or pick from the visual and then demonstrate/teach it to their peers. We would then chain these movement together with the music. Participants would work on gross motor, self expression, making choices, following directions, sequencing, social interaction, and respecting the choices of other’s. To further adapt, you could record it and make your own music video, if participants are willing.
Intervention Three
Song Discussion- “Wishing Well”- Juice WRLD
For the third intervention, I decided I wanted to do a song discussion. When looking through music, I came across “Wishing Well” by Juice WRLD and chose it. I have done song discussions while in school at WIU, including during one of my practicums, but never with rap music or younger clients. In listening to different songs, I saw that rap doesn’t shy away from topics we don’t like to talk about such as depression and drug use, this song included. I think sometimes we want to pretend that youth don’t deal with these issues. We all know that isn’t true.
In using this for a song discussion, I think it could be a bridge to talk about hard topics like depression, self worth, drug use, and the feeling of helplessness. On the flip side this song talks about a wishing well, opening dialogue for wishes we have had that haven’t come true and wishes we have for the future. Facilitating this, I would have clients circle/highlight words and phrases that stood out to them, ask about their thoughts overall on the song, and work through questions, letting them expand and direct the conversation, within reason. I would end the discussion by focusing on the symbolism of the wishing well in the song and ask about their wishes past, present, or future. Of course, this would go differently depending of the setting and the participation from clients.
I have not done a song discussion yet in my internship. I feel like when I do, I will realize that there’s a lot I need to learn and that it is different from my planning on an assignment.
Last Thoughts
I haven’t had the chance to use any of these interventions with my clients. That is not to say that I won’t in some compacity. It might be with a different song or used for another intervention. I could see myself using rap with one of the schools I see in Taylorville. I’m excited to keep learning and branching out into other genres of music I don’t have experience in.
A picture of me in motion at an elementary school playing jingle bells to “Jingle Bells”.
Christmas is less than a week away, so of course we’ve got to jump into Christmas and holiday music. As a music therapist, or maybe even just a human, it is impossible to not be hearing or using Christmas music at this time of year. I thought I would do a quick dive into how I, as a music therapy intern, have used Christmas or holiday music in my sessions, these past couple of weeks.
Instrument Playing
Instrument playing is an intervention I often do with my clients that I see throughout the week. When playing instruments, clients work on fine and gross motor skills, range of motion, impulse control, following directions, and sustained attention. The last couple weeks I have used “Jingle Bells” played with jingle bells, an Listen and Learn rewrite of “Little Drummer Boy” called “Little Drummer Boys and Girls” played with lollypop drums, and shakers to Laurie Berkner’s winter song “I Live Inside A Snow Globe”.
Jingle bells are commonly associated with Christmas and the winter holidays, which makes it an easy choice to play along to any Christmas song. Clinicians can shout out directions, such “play up high” or “play fast” between verses or rewrite familiar tunes to imbed directions into the lyrics.
Movement
Similar to instrument playing, clients work on fine and gross motor skills, range of motion, following directions, sustained attention, decision making, and sequencing during different movement interventions. It is easy to adapt Christmas music to movement. Some songs that I have used are “Let It Go”, “Jingle Bell Rock”, and “I Live Inside A Snow Globe”. This week, students participated in body percussion to play along videos of “Let It Go” and “Jingle Bell Rock”. Younger students and toddlers in our Listen and Learn class held onto scarves and waved them in different directions. Another movement intervention is dancing. Dance moves can be choreographed to Christmas music by the facilitator or participants. This is also a fun way to work on sequencing.
Sing-Along
This is where I have been doing a majority of Christmas and holiday music. At contracts like Hope and Sparc spend time doing sing-along. At Hope, students make choices and express themselves by picking songs from visual sheet of songs during the last ten minutes of the session. Songs on this list include “I Want A Hippopotamus For Christmas”, “The Grinch”, and “Frosty The Snowman”. Group members at Sparc raise their hands and take turns verbally asking for a specific song. Both groups work on decision making and respecting others’ choices.
Sing-along songs can also be used for emotional regulation. Facilitators can use familiar Christmas music played at a slower tempo and finger picked to promote relaxation and help with high sensory stimulation. Cool down songs are often planned into our sessions at Hope. Over the past three weeks, I have used “Silver Bells” as a cool down if one is needed.
Songwriting
While not a session that I planned or facilitated, my supervisor, Emma planned a fill-in-the-blank songwriting intervention to “Rudolph The Red Nosed Reindeer” for one of the classes at Hope. Students participated, worked on sustained attention, self expression, and decision making. Mad-libs styled songwriting can be applied to many songs. In this holiday season, it is a way to incorporate songs of the season without having to do them verbatim. While I love Christmas music, even I get tired of “Jingle Bells” after the fiftieth time. Through songwriting, participants still get to interact with music they enjoy, but get to be creative, silly, and express themselves while still working on their goals.
Bingo
A huge hit everywhere I go, is music Bingo. I had never done it prior to my internship. It is a great way to incorporate recorded music in order to authentically play clients’ preferred music. I have used music Bingo in a variety of settings and with a variety of populations. In doing music bingo, participants work on sustained attention, impulse control, listening, and fine motor. There are so many types of Christmas related bingos you can create. This week, a Bingo we did was songs from Christmas movies. It also opens up an avenue for discussions. If done with older adults, who are stereotyped to love Bingo, a facilitator can easily move the conversation towards memories surrounding the song, Christmas traditions, and Christmases past.
Takeaway
Not everyone loves Christmas music, but it is commonly requested at this time of year. It is only natural to integrate it into our sessions. Therapy should have the magic of Christmas and every other winter holiday. I have learned from my supervisors how to use holiday music in ways I would have never thought of.
What is your favorite holiday song? How could you incorporate it into a session, beyond sing-along or Bingo?
My sister and I with our Thanksgiving desserts we made together.
I know that writing a list of what I am thankful for as my blog for this week may be cliche, but sometimes things are cliche for a reason. A reason why is because they are good. I’m currently in my fourth month of my internship at MTC and life is super busy in my internship and outside of it. Sometimes a reminder of all we have to be grateful for during the crazy times, makes those crazy times a little better. So without further ado, this is my list of things I have to be grateful for in all aspects of my life.
Family
I’m very close with my family and I always have been. I realize how lucky I am though this year. A year ago, we didn’t know if we’d ever have another holiday with my grandpa. My grandparents have been a huge part of my life and practically helped raise me along with my mom. This time last year, I was sitting in a chair next to my grandpa while he was in the ICU from a double subdural hematoma. This year, I was able to move back to my home area. I see my family a lot more often than I was able to when I was a couple hours away in Macomb. I’m so grateful that I have been able to be more involved. I am so close with my sister and my mom and they have both been so supportive of me as I do my internship and just go through regular life.
My internship
I am so thankful for my internship for so many reasons. I spent so much time looking for an internship, sending out applications, and doing interviews. I was worried that I would never find one and when I did it was almost serendipitous in how it turned out. MTC is twenty minutes away from where I grew up and only two minutes away from where I was already living after completing my coursework at WIU. Not only that, but I had talked to one of owners of the business before I ever went off to college about how I knew I wanted to go to school for music therapy. It has turned out to be so much of what I was looking for and more. I have always been interested in private practice, so getting to do so is a dream come true. The atmosphere is so welcoming. I wish I could tell myself from a year ago or even six months ago to not worry so much about thinking I’ll never find an internship. Everyone says this, but you’ll find one. No matter where you end up, you’ll learn so much.
My friends
Life is a crazy ride and I don’t know where I would be without my friends. Making friends has never been super easy for me but I have a few close friends. People who have supported me in my dreams; to keep going when things got tough. They have been there when graduation felt impossibly far or when my life felt like it was falling apart. Though my close friends are comprised of my best friend, who is now living all the way over in Alaska, weirdly enough my ex (we’re on good terms and she is a big supporter of me and my partner), my sister, and my partner. I am so lucky to have also made new friends in my co-workers.
My coworkers
It can be scary being the new person to enter the mix anywhere, but I have been so lucky. Like I stated before, I don’t always make friends easily, but this group has accepted me so graciously. I can be awkward and talk a lot, especially when I’m nervous, but they have made me feel so included and at home here. My biggest belief is that we have something to learn from everyone and in this time, I have already learned so much from these wonderful women.
My lesson students
When I started teaching lessons at MTC, I was terrified. A little voice in my head said that I didn’t know what I was doing and that I wasn’t qualified. Now it’s months later and I love it so much. I am so thankful for my students for helping ignite this passion. I have learned so much about teaching but my own skills too. I feel like I have become a better singer, pianist, and ukulele player through it all. I also have found a confidence in it that I did not have before. I love seeing my student work hard and it’s so great when they make a breakthrough.
All my clients
I’m thankful for all my clients. I wouldn’t be able to do what I do without them. They bring so much joy and energy into my day. They have made me a better music therapist and facilitator. I have learned so much that I didn’t get a chance to in school. There’s something about getting to do what you love that makes each day worth it, even on tough days. Seeing effect of how music helps them is like no other. Even if it feels like a small victory, I love being able to see them grow. I’m so proud of my clients and everything they achieve. I never thought I would be at a school working with kids for a majority of my week, but it has been so rewarding.
My music education
I will forever be grateful for the music education I received throughout my life. In school, my teachers helped foster my love of music. In high school, I was able to do challenging pieces of music and take multiple semesters of music theory and composition. I learned about my voice and was able to spend time understanding the foundational building blocks of music as well as composing your own music. This paved a way for me to study music. I already knew I wanted to go into music therapy, but this gave me a leg up. In college, theory 1 and 2 ended up being a review for me. I ended up doing even more complicated music in my time at Western. n that time, I learned so much about the voice and all the intricate parts that are involved in singing, which has greatly impacted the lessons I teach. I was able to learn piano, continue my guitar skills, and create memories from such great experiences such as getting to perform with the only choir to get to represent Illinois at a regional conference to being one of the first choirs to debut a new masterworks.
Having my necessities
We all know things are a little wild in the world right now. I am so very thankful for all that I have. I have an apartment, with heat, that is stocked with food. I have clothes, a bed, and a car to get to work. Am I barely scraping by some months? For sure, but I’m getting by. In a time where so many don’t have these necessities, I am so thankful that I do. And I know that if I ever not being able to afford these necessities, my family wouldn’t blink twice at the thought of helping me through.
Final Thoughts
It can be hard to remember all we have to be thankful for in these times, hence, why I did this to remind myself. Maybe this has led you to reflect on what you’re thankful for. I know I’m thankful for the opportunity to write this and the fact that you are reading this.
On my first day of internship, I wrote the date on the inside cover of my notebook. That date was almost three months ago. So what does the life of a music therapy intern look like three-ish months in.
Weekly checklist
As an intern, I have a list of things I have to do every week. This includes: daily journals, where I write about my day working with clients and about how I felt; weekly assignments, which lately have been songwriting or recording; weekly repertoire checks, where I learn two songs and then lead them in my supervision; and bi-weekly blog posts, like this one. I also plan interventions and sessions for the contracts and clients I see, but this changes every week as I take on more responsibilities and lead more independently.
Mondays
I spend most of my day at Hope School. While there, I see four classes with my supervisor Emma. Before and in between sessions, we work in our office. I spend that time preparing music, writing documentation, and if I have time, writing my journal or working on other tasks I need to complete that week. After the school day, I come back to MTC where I work on assignments and observe a music therapy session led by Emma. I end my day writing in my journal about everything that happened.
Tuesdays
I again spend most of my day at Hope School, but Tuesdays are much busier. I see six classes with Emma. Many of the classes are back to back or close to it, so I don’t always get a chance to document after each session. This was hard at first, but I learned that I remember more than I thought I would. Once the school day is through, I drive back to MTC where I work on assignments before having two lessons and a session back to back. My first lesson is teaching Ukulele, then I teach most of an adapted lesson with Emma, and then straight into facilitating half a session with Molly. After it all, I write my journal entry.
Wednesdays
I start my morning off at SPARC. It is so much fun! I meet Molly there and then we rock out with group members. On special occasions, we bust out some music bingo. I then go back to Hope School where I see two more classes. When Molly and I get there we have a lot of time to prep. In that time, I document for SPARC, make sure I am ready for my classes, and work on any other tasks I have that week. I am fully facilitating both classes which is exciting and even doing one class without Molly supervising in the room. The rest of my day I spend working on assignments, meeting with Katey, one of the owners of the company over zoom, and teaching a voice lesson. Soon, I’ll be leading an evening Listen and Learn class.
Thursdays
By the time I get to Thursday, I really need the break it brings. I start the morning leading Listen and Learn, our class that serves ages 0-3. Then have time to myself to do whatever I need. I usually spend that time going home and taking a short nap and eating before heading back to the office. Sometimes, I stay at the office if there is a lot I need to get done. Once I’m back, I have a lot of time to work on assignments and prepare before supervision. During supervision I have my weekly rep check. I like to spend the twenty minutes before supervision going over my music one last time. Supervision is a time where I meet with my supervisors and talk about my week, my upcoming week, internship, and life in general. After supervision, I teach three lessons and finish by writing my journal.
Fridays
My Fridays always look a little different. Every other week I go to Taylorville. While there I see three different classes, each at a different school. The drive to Taylorville is long so I always make sure to put on a good playlist before leaving. On the weeks that I am not at Taylorville, I observe a session in our clinic. I spend the rest of my day working on finishing assignments before and in between clients. Later in the afternoon, I teach an adapted piano lesson and lead a music therapy session. After doing documentation for my client, I spend any time afterwards finishing my blog post, assignment, and daily journal.
Going Home
Most nights I don’t get home until 6 or 6:30. On a lucky night, I’m out of the office by 5:30. But what do I do with my time? I spend a lot of my time napping. Internship can be a very tiring ordeal. Lately, I have been working on having a work life balance so that I do more than work, eat, and sleep. Recently, I have been catching up on TV shows like Stranger Things, reading webcomics, and knitting (at least attempting).
Every internship is different. It is easy to compare journeys, but just like our uniqueness as individuals, each internship is unique. Every intern needs something different. I, for example, am not equally busy all week due to health issues that affect my energy levels. Because of this, my internship will be longer than my peers from Western or my co-workers who did their own internships at MTC.
